Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Our dear old cat Chili is gone. We had her put down this morning. She was pretty old--19 plus years and was getting more and more uncomfortable. It was really the only humane thing to do. And yet...I've been crying all day, off and on. The grief has hit me really hard.
Chili was with us when India was born. She climbed up on the birthing bed! She was much more interested and tuned into our family than anything else, much more than any other cat I've known. And she was a strong presence in our home. She would always be waiting for us when we walked through the door.
I was expecting her to be there on the couch, as always, when we got back from Crane Creek Park, where we buried her this morning.
Maybe she was. Maybe she was.
The burial couldn't have been more perfect. Krista and I were married in that park, under an arched oak tree way out in the middle of a field of oaks. It was sunny and warm and the ground was just soft enough to dig a grave, but hard enough to really make it real.
We unwrapped Chili from the cloth she was in and that's when the girls really felt it. They weren't there for the vet.
We all were crying when we laid her in her grave--she was still soft enough to curl her up. We covered her with marigolds that Joyce and Jerry bought for us at the farmers market. And then with our hands we carefully covered her again with the coarse dry earth.
India had found a big stone not far away and I was just able to pick it up and carry it over for a marker.
It had been years since we'd visited that tree, but now I'm sure we'll go again soon.
I'm going to go back to vacuuming up all the cat hair she left behind all over the house. Except for one little bit I combed off of her this morning, before the vet came. I'm keeping that.
I know that some of this grief I'm feeling is connected up with my folks dying, thirteen years ago. It's all connected and it comes in waves.
I'm grateful I have enough time and space in my life to feel this, even though it's hard. Thanks for reading this and take a minute today to let someone know you love them.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
(Actually, this is my own polling site. You may be the first to vote!)
Thursday, October 23, 2008
So just grab a #2 pencil and your California ballot and here goes (apologies to those of you who don't live in California):
1A: The Train. No. Why no? It's a bond measure. Our state budget is screwed. Otherwise I'd vote yes.
2: Let's Stop Tormenting The Farm Animals Act. Yes. Unless you are some sort of heartless Nazi sonofabitch.
3. Children's Hospital. No. Bond measure. Sorry.
4. Endanger Pregnant Teens Act. No. Wait, not no, HELL NO!
5. Let The Potheads Out of Prison Act. Yes. About frickin' time too. Important step away from the US becoming a police state.
6. Let's Become More of a Police State Act. No. Let's not.
7. Renewable Energy Confusion Initiative. I'm voting no, but I'm not 100% sure, so make up your own mind on this one. Seems like important environmental groups are opposed, but those same groups may be taking funding from PG&E. I'm going with 'when in doubt, don't'.
8. God Hates Fags Constitutional Amendment. No. Let's keep their church out of our state.
9. The Other Police State Amendment. No. Ooooh, let's all be scared. Charlie Manson--Ooooh.
10. The T Boone Pickins Enrichment Act. No. We really don't need lots more natural gas cars. We need electric cars, and plug in hybrids. T Boone has enough money.
11. Redistricting for Dummies. Yes. I'm trusting Common Cause and The League of Women Voters on this one. The opponents make it sound so scary. But a 99% re-election rate is scarier still.
12. Veteran's Bond Act. No. It's a bond. Sorry guys. Once Obama starts the nationwide conversion to green energy independence and there's full employment and huge tax revenues we'll be ready to send some cash your way.
Measure Q. Yes. Even if I thought you should vote no, I wouldn't say so. My friend Meredith would tear my head off. But really, it's yes yes yes, since it's a sales tax funded measure, rather than a bond measure. We need a train. Now. Please.
Anyway, if you think I'm totally wrong on any of these, please leave a comment or two.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
I've heard John McCain use the term "safe nuclear" over and over in his debates and speeches. I believe he is either very evil or so entirely uninformed--willfully ignorant--that he has no business serving in any capacity of government.
Even Obama has talked up nuclear power "once we solve the problem of safe storage for spent fuel". I hope he really knows better than that.
The whole purpose of a nuclear reactor is to create steam. And material for nuclear bombs. We don't need anymore bombs and there are much much better ways to make steam (including functioning prototype solar towers).
While watching this film and seeing the Soviet response to the catastrophe, I couldn't help remembering Katrina and our own government's pathetic failure there.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Krista (and I) are doing a little show today at Ace in the Hole, a cider pub in the little town of Graton, from 3 to 6pm. Afterwards there will be dancing with the band The Thugz (my friend David's favorite local band--"cosmic Americana, psychedelic, jam).
The show is a four woman show and I'm thinking it will be awesome, if for no other reason than Krista has two big new originals--including one I absolutely love! Erzulie Dreams The Devil. She also has several brand new little paintings. She finished them yesterday afternoon.
Sorry for the late notice here. But if you live anywhere nearby, c'mon down and see us!
Friday, October 10, 2008
Senator John McCain
2211 East Camelback Road
Phoenix, AZ 85016
October 10, 2008
Dear Senator McCain,
Please put an end to your campaign's negative and dishonorable tactics. I believe that only you can do this.
Your campaign seems to be deliberately trying to incite violence and hatred between Americans at a time when our nation is in peril.
Clearly this strategy is not working at all. In fact it is hurting your chances of being elected. What possible reason could you, or your campaign staff, have for continuing the lies, smears, personal attacks and inflammatory rhetoric?
If you were to publicly call a halt to this hate mongering, I believe it would actually bolster your chances. And would go a long way toward salvaging your increasingly besmirched legacy.
Amazingly, a few hours after sending this letter, I read that McCain had done just that! Now let's see Ms. Palin following suit.
It wouldn't hurt for them to keep getting letters like this. If you don't have a fax machine, there are several internet fax services that offer free 30 day trials. I'd like to see McCain lose gracefully and retire. And Palin can slink back up to Alaska to do infomercials or something.
Monday, October 06, 2008
Friday, October 03, 2008
Thursday, October 02, 2008
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
McCain still believes that in Iraq and Vietnam the problem was the wrong strategy, not the wrong war. It may be the last thing in this campaign McCain says that's true to his core beliefs and record, but he's wrong. Dead wrong.